Sleep. the lack of really.

So Will has reverted back to being a newborn. Except for he weighs about 20 pounds more and eats more. The sleeping habits are the same. He has been waking up multiple times a night screaming and totally unconsolable. I dont know what is going on with him. I have tried everything. Rocking him, putting him in our bed, even giving him a bottle to get him to go back so sleep and so far nothing is really working that well. Plus I am trying to break him from the bottle so I am totally back tracking on that one. I dont know that either one of us is ready to give it up though. It just makes life so much easier for me. I know... it is bad to have your 14 month only still on the bottle. Especially when he uses it to fall asleep. A mistake that I will not make again. But now we are in so deep it feels like we will never get it right! I am creating a monster in this kid. I need to get this all figured out before the new baby comes. I have to admit that I wish that we had a little longer. Is there a way that I can stall this pregnancy? Yeh, didnt think so. Dont get me wrong. I am excited, but I am just so scared. Will is such a handful right now, I dont know how I will stay sane with having two. The sad thing is that the baby will be the easy one, Will is going to be the one causing all the trouble. I knew parenting would be difficult, but honestly I was not prepared for this! If any of you have any advice or words of encouragement that would be great! I would be happy to listen!

Besides Wills sleeping trouble things have really been going well. I am almost 19 weeks already. I am feeling the baby squirm around and even feeling some strong kicks every now and again. Being pregnant really is an awesome thing! I am enjoying it more this time around I think since I am not stressing about all the little things. I already feel such a strong connection to this baby. We have our sono in two weeks so hopefully the baby will cooperate and we can find out the sex of the baby then. I cant wait! I will be happy with either, but I think that Will would be happier having a little brother. And I think that Jon would be happier too! Me? I wish for a girl with at least one of my children, but I have a feeling that I will have a house full of boys!