Whats sleep?

As you can tell by the title I have not been getting much sleep lately. Sleep is like a luxury item now, a really great thing that I only get on special occasions. Funny how little sleep you actually need to function. I remember the days (prechildren of course) when waking up at 8 was early. And God forbid I got less than 8 hours sleep. What I would give for a straight 8 hours would shock you I'm sure. I absolutely LOVE being a mom. ADORE my children. But I do not enjoy the lack of sleep. I feel like a zombi. I think that the last 10 months of not sleeping ( 4 months of Eli, last 6 months of pregnancy) has finally caught up to me. I find myself thinking all kids of crazy things...things that would get me locked in the Pavilion for sure. So to those who do not have children- ENJOY YOUR SLEEP! Because once those sweet little bundles of joy arrive you never really sleep again. Its more like little naps all through the night.

Mothers Day was yesterday. I did alot of reflecting on my life and how amazing the gift of a child is. Such an amazing love. But so hard. No one tells you how your life is no longer lived for you, but for your children. Trips to the mall are no longer to buy a pair of new shoes or something to wear, but straight to the childrens stores to buy your little ones something. Young and the Restless is replaced with Sesame Street. Your house that was once kept so clean is now overflowing with bouncey seats, toys and sippy cups. Those quiet dinners alone with the husband are replaced with kids throwing food, a dog trying to steal food, and a huge mess all over your childs face (and usually all over thier once clean clothes that you just bought at that trip to the mall). Life is complete chaos. Complete sweet chaos. I wouldnt change it for the world. All these sleepless nights and crazy days filled with snotty noses, boo-boos, and whiney two year olds are totally worth it when I look into the faces of my babies. Nothing is sweeter than hearing your toddler yelling " mommy!" when he is scared, or seeing your baby smile when he sees you walk in the room. Yes, life sure is different. But I would never want to go back now!